I feel nothing
Longing for something
Relax a minute to take your clothes off show me what you're made of
Drugs, to sooth me

All alone
Leave me here I'm dying
All alone
Just kick me in my face
All alone
All alone and crying
All alone
I suffocate

I'm not gifted
Slightly twisted
Try hard; try harder to see if I can push you any further
Drugs, to soothe me

All alone
Leave me here I'm dying
All alone
Just kick me in my face
All alone
All alone and crying
All alone
I suffocate

Please believe
You save me, rearrange me
I can feel
Your feelings running through me
Take away
My sorrow, my tomorrow
Cradle me

All alone
Leave me here I'm dying
All alone
Just kick me in my face
All alone
All alone and crying
All alone
I suffocate

Suffocate

I'm kinda numb
It's so distorted
You left me here with
This damage that you've caused
My tortured faces
Those fucked up places
In my memories
None of them I've lost
But

I haven't been here long enough to know
Every time I feel this, I just lose control
Such a cancer on the face of everything that's beautiful
I wish that this would just go
Go

It's kinda sick
I feel so dirty
I'm kinda tragic
I'm kinda insecure
But I know
That I'm the only
One that can fix
Whatever's wrong I'm sure
But

I haven't been here long enough to know
Every time I feel this, I just lose control
Such a cancer on the face of everything that's beautiful
I wish that this would just go
Go

I feel so alone
From all I've become
I'll take you down
I feel so down
I'm water while you drown
You're lifted while I'm down
I'm cancer in your womb
I'm the needle in your spoon
But

I haven't been here long enough to know
Every time I feel this, I just lose control
Such a cancer on the face of everything that's beautiful
I wish that this would just go
Go

Just Go
With these fucking lies
All your fucking Lies

I hear you talk about your family life
I wish I knew just what that means
I guess my mother never loved my dad
And now I wear it on my sleeve

My sister called me just the other day
It felt so good to hear her voice
My problem is I don't have much to say
I guess she doesn't have a choice
And I'm sorry

Look at me
I'm so pathetic
I can't believe
I'm just an addict
I never needed anyone to help me
I’m begging you
To please come save me from myself
Save me from my

My mother's always tried to change herself
She never learned to let things be
She doesn't know how bad she messed me up
Cause now she seems so fake to me
But I love her

Look at me
I'm so pathetic
I can't believe
I'm just an addict
I never needed anyone to help me
I’m begging you
To please come save me from myself
Save me from myself

If you push me, then I won't fall
I've been programmed to take it all
And shove it way down inside
Like my father
Like my father

I'm so pathetic
I Can't believe
I'm just an addict
I try to be
I'm failing at it
Life to me
Is just a habit

I hear you talk about your family life
I wish I knew just what that means

The pictures left with me won't fade
These images affect me every day
Cause of you I feel I don't deserve
The life I see in her

Just don't leave me...raw

Inside, I'm so cold
Inside, I'm so cold

I've never been someone who knows
My choices haunt me everywhere I go
Finally did something right for myself
My life, for you, no one else

Just don't leave me...raw

Inside, I'm so cold
Inside, I'm so cold

I feel so cold
I can't take this

Raw

Inside, I'm so cold
Inside, I'm so cold

Raw

I feel so
Raw

You take away
I feel the same

You take away
I feel the same
All the promises you made to me you made in vain
I lost myself inside your tainted smile again

Cause You can’t feel my anger
You can’t feel my pain
You can’t feel my torment
Driving me insane
I can't fight these feelings
They will bring you pain
You can't take away
Make me whole again

I feel betrayed
Stuck in your way
And you ripped me apart with the brutal things you say
I can't deal with this shit anymore I just look away
Cause You can’t feel my anger
You can’t feel my pain
You can’t feel my torment
Driving me insane
I can't fight these feelings
They bring only pain
You can't take away
Make me whole again

Mudshovel

You take away
I feel the same
All these promises
You promised only pain
If you take away
And leave me with nothing again
Cause You can’t feel my anger
You can’t feel my pain
You can’t feel my torment
Driving me insane
I can't fight these feelings
They will bring me pain
You can't take away
Make me whole again

You will feel my anger
You will feel my pain
You will feel my torment
Driving you insane
I can't fight these feelings
They will bring you pain
You won't take away
I'll be whole again

Mudshovel

I force myself through another day
Can't explain the way today just fell apart like everything
Right in my face
And I try to be the one
I can't accept this all
Because of you, I've had to walk away
From everything

And I'm afraid to be alone
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I'm afraid to come back home

Another sleepless night again
Hotel room’s my only friend
And friends like that just don't add up
To anything
And I try so hard to be
Everything that I should never take away from you again
Cuz' I heard you say

I'm afraid to be alone
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
And I'm afraid to come back home

I cannot forget
I live with regret
I cannot forget
I live with it
I live through this
I can't see through this
I can't do this anymore

Cause I'm afraid to be alone
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I'm afraid to come back home
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I just wish I was back home
Home

Trust in me, can't trust
I know, I don't believe it
All my life so scarred
What for, you can't conceive it
Everything you fear
I'll be, you couldn't live it
I whisper in your ear
So loud, why can't you hear it?
I'll be okay
I'm okay
I'll be okay
I'm okay

All my faith is gone
You think I couldn't find it
Pieces falling down
Shattered, nothing behind it
In my mind alone
Lost here, I'm separated
Crawl deeper in my hole
Safe here, from what I hated

All the demons in my head won't leave me
I know, I can hear them
All the sacrifices made for nothing
Don't show, can't believe in
Wanna show you that I'm good for something
I can't, you won't let me
All your artificial words won't heal me
Because you can't accept me

And I hate myself
And I hate my face
And I hate my world
And I hate my ways
And I..
And I...
And I...
And I...
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'll be okay
I'm okay
I'll be okay
I'm okay

Trust in me, can't trust
I know, I don't believe it
All my life so scarred
What for, you can't conceive it
Everything you fear
I'll be, you couldn't live it
I whisper in your ear
Fuck me, why can't you feel it?

All the demons in my head won't leave me
I know, I can hear them
All the sacrifices made for nothing
Don't show, can't believe in
Wanna show you that I'm good for something
I can't, you won't let me
All your artificial words won't heal me
Because you can't accept me

I don't believe it

I'm so lonely
You're so beautiful
Not the only
One that's pitiful
Stretched and torn, I lay here in pieces
Craving all of your deadly vices
Like to think I'm not addicted
But I guess I wear it well

And I crawl, while you spit
And I crawl, through you

Here I am now
Not a lot has changed
Nothing better
Everything's the same
Late at night I can hear your voices
Talking shit about all my choices
You would think that you've known me forever
Just because you know my name

And I crawl, while you spit
And I crawl, through you

Everything falls apart
Everything

And I crawl, while you spit
And I crawl, through

Can't breathe
Shut up, shut up

I feel I give everything to you
Can't breathe
Shut up, shut up

I think there's nothing left to do
Can't breathe
Shut up, shut up

I don't like today
Take it all away
Just like what you say
I don't want you
Kinda like the way
Everything is grey
Just like what you say
I don't need you
I don't look like you
Do the things you do
But I'm fucked up too
I don’t need you

Can't breathe
Shut up, shut up

I feel you are what saves my soul

Can't breathe
Shut up, shut up

I think, I’ll never lose control
Can’t breathe
Shut up, shut up

I don't like today
Take it all away
Just like what you say
I don't want you
Kinda like the way
Everything is grey
Just like what you say
I don't need you
I don't look like you
Do the things you do
But I'm fucked up too
I don’t need you

I don't understand it, you're killing this planet
The scabs on her face it's a fucking disgrace
I blame you
I blame you
I blame you
I blame you
I blame you

Can't breathe
Shut up, shut up

I don't like today
Take it all away
Just like what you say
I don't want you
Kinda like the way
Everything is grey
Just like what you say
I don't need you
I don't look like you
Do the things you do
But I'm fucked up too
I don’t need you

Well I know the words
But I can't really speak them
To you
And I hide all the pain
That I've gained with my wisdom
From you
And I'm eaten alive
By what I hold inside
All the things that I live with
I can't easily hide
And I'm left here with nothing
Nothing to live for
But you

It’s not easy to hide
All this damage inside
I'll carry you with me
Until I'm not alive

When you look at my face
Does it seem just as ugly to you
I can't seem to erase
All the scars I have lived with
From you
I'm so sick of this place
And this taste in my mouth
Cause of you I can't figure
What I'm all about
And I'm left here with nothing
Nothing to live for
But you

It’s not easy to hide
All this damage inside
I'll carry it with me
‘Til I'm not alive